And I used to it for free and now I’m getting paid for it. This is great. So you know, I was glad that the guys like my jokes, I was not even a comedian. This is just — you know, just to kind of fast forward, because you know there’s so much I’m trying to squeeze into five minutes.
But, there were a lot of haters, there were a lot of doubters, there were people that were telling me “Man, you’re not going to do that, that’s not gonna happen.” “He’ll be back.”
I remember telling my buddies I am moving to New York. “All right, you’ll be back.” No, I’m not coming back. And if I do come back it’s for concert, you know, and everybody will be like, “Whatever.”
When I came back it was for concert, it was the most beautiful homecoming I’ve ever had. There’s no show, more important than this show. And I’m not just saying that because like in Cleveland, and it’s like my hometown. It was the first time I saw my peers, friends I went to school with, being proud of me. I didn’t get the moment to walk across the stage with everybody. I didn’t get the cap and gown, do you know what I mean?
I didn’t get the chance to see these guys because I moved at 11th grade. So I didn’t even see Kendra for a while because I haven’t seen anybody so long. But that’s a beautiful moment. Still,l to this day, I do shows, and I see a classmate in the crowd and I’m up to give my raps. Ah god, what girl, why happy, you got any kids! I’m I’m sorry! And you know, it’s wild, you know. And I didn’t get that at school. I didn’t play on the foot ball team. I tried, but I was terrible.
I didn’t play on the basketball team. I tried but I was terrible. I didn’t wrestle. I tried. No, no, I did try. But I tried outside the Shaker Heights High School in another district in Cleveland Heights where none of my peers could see me and me be embarrassed. It was kinda like, “Okay, I’ll try this in 7th grade, and be terrible. And then nobody in Shaker will know about it because it’s in Cleverland Heights. Let’s not talk about it.
But my point is also like “Music was my Plan G.” You know it wasn’t like I did try everything else. I tried everything that I thought, you know, was a traditional thing a young boy should do – sports, you know. And even going to college was me, just trying to fulfill a destiny, what I thought was my own destiny.
But then also, I wanted to make my mom happy. You know. It sometimes guys got to do that. You know, there’s a lot of things, and we don’t want to stop this like man like. Your parents say that you really have to do a lot of us. And you know, it’s like. And now I’m at 31, and I am just like I had to apologize to my mom about what I was seven years ago. I was like, “Mom, I’m sorry.” It was like “I was a nightmare.” But we have money now, so let’s just go and kick it.
And we’re okay. We are good now. And it was funny too because I took my mom got her first tattoo ever, where I forced her into getting a tattoo. It is so funny, because you… Are you embarrassed? I’m sorry. But this is big because our relationship from the kid I was in high school, it’s the best it’s ever been, You know, I used to put my mom through Hell. But she was my supporter. And that’s what parents are there to do: to give you the devil’s advocate even when I’m not gonna say every time I said I’m moving to New York. She went like OK.
You know, that was more so like, the fear of letting your child go out into the world, more so like the people n the street say, “Hey, now you don’t want to see you win.” Parents care. And I got a four-and-a-half year-old, and she’ll be five in March, she’s the apple of my eye. She’s my little baby.
And she’s so funny, because I’m the one that gets emotional when she has to leave, you know. And I kind of just like, when she’s leaving me, I’ll be missing her, right? And she’s like, “Yeah.” And I say “are you going to miss daddy?” “Yeah.” You know you can call me stuff like that, “Miss me.”
I’m just sad you’re leaving, and she says “it’s okay, we always come back.”
And I say, “That’s what I’m saying, that’s why I am crying, I am so emotional. But it was just like beautiful to just see. You know, like me being the parent now. You know what I’m saying, and to see the confidence in my child, and the same confidence I gave my mom, and you’ve gotta just kind of take a back seat and go, okay.