Now of course I didn’t want to tell her that I had this thought. But if there’s one thing I knew about therapy it’s that if you really don’t want to tell your therapist something means you probably should.
So I sheepishly told her about it and as tough as it was to admit, it led to this beautiful discussion about what I believe I bring to my relationships and my wish to be important to people and how I need to be received by others to feel loved.
As a therapist, I’ve also gotten to experience this from the other side of the couch. So there was the patient who would always try to take care of me instead of focusing on herself. Together we realized how responsible she feels for everyone around her even when it’s to her detriment and she practiced finding balance.
There was the CEO I worked with who picked little fights with me all the time and then worked really hard to resolve those fights. Over time we came to understand that he unknowingly creates problems with people because fixing those problems makes him feel wanted and important.
And then there was the patient who despite being very wealthy paid for his first session with nickels and then never came back. So that one remains a mystery.
So I love psychoanalytic therapy but any type of ongoing work that improves your mental health is therapeutic. Anything that helps you become more comfortable being uncomfortable.
The main point is it won’t be quick or easy and it’s pretty tough to do alone. No world-class athlete has ever achieved their full potential without the support of a coach. Why do we expect to reach our emotional potential by ourselves? Having that trained objective person to reflect you back to yourself is a game changer.
What I see is most people using their friends and family for this. And my pro tip here is while your friends and family are so important, they’re not trained and they’re definitely not objective.
Now at this point if you’re sitting there listening and thinking that I’m not really talking to you, I hate to say it but I’m especially talking to you.
There is so much you don’t know you don’t know, and we’re really good at hiding things from ourselves. So unprocessed pain and unhealthy ways of relating get passed down from generation to generation.
But here’s the thing: so does healing. By doing this work on yourself you are breaking the cycle. Have you ever wished that your family had done the work to build better tools, or that your boss was a little more self-aware, or that your partner was a better communicator?
Well, the pure magic of it is as you did this work on yourself, things will change around you. As you get healthier, healthier people will just start to show up. Instead of I’ll take care of you if you take care of me and our relationships, we should be thinking, I’ll take care of me for you, if you’ll take care of you for me.
I’ve seen what’s possible when a person commits to this and the ripple effect that it has. The ways in which it will affect everyone who cares about you, everyone who comes after you, everything you touch, everything you create, everyone who you interact with in any way will be positively impacted by the work you do on yourself.
I want to acknowledge that therapy requires time and money and that can be a prohibitive factor. And there are sliding scale clinics in every major city and in my experience time and money tend to shrink and expand in relation to priority. The amount of time you spend preoccupied by all that’s on your mind vastly outweighs the time therapy takes.
So start now. Strengthen your resilience muscles while they’re healthy enough to be flexed. Issues are so much easier to prevent than they are to fix.
The term mental health has become equated with mental health issues. But instead of just mental fixes we should be thinking about mental fitness. You don’t have to be broken. You don’t have to be desperate. You don’t have to be anything but curious and ready to level up and move closer toward the version of yourself that you want to be.
When people ask me why therapy is worth doing, they’ll often say, “Well, is it just that it’ll make me happy?”
And I usually say, “No, it’s not that it’ll make you happy. It’s that it will drastically increase the depth and authenticity of your happiness. And it will honor the cathartic beauty of your sadness and it will make the profoundly necessary space for every feeling that lives in between.”
We live in a culture that fetishizes happiness. We’re made to believe that something is wrong with us if we’re not thrilled in every moment. But happiness is not a sustainable end goal. Happiness is only one of many healthy useful important emotions. And in therapy, you have the permission and support to feel the full range of human emotion instead of just one small slice.
It might be difficult to understand how transformative that is, until you see the magic it can spark in your life. I know I didn’t get it until I tried it myself.