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Trauma on the Brain: The Neurobiological Effects of PTSD – Daisy Payton (Transcript)

Here is the full transcript of Daisy Payton’s talk titled “Trauma on the Brain: The Neurobiological Effects of PTSD” at TEDxMeritAcademy 2023 conference.

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TRANSCRIPT:

A Journey Through Trauma and Recovery

In my early 20s, I was in an abusive relationship. It was unsafe, emotionally and physically, but it was all that I knew. After about two years, I started to disconnect from myself and I lost touch with who I was. The only thing that kept me going was my desire to transfer to the University of San Francisco to study psychology and neuroscience.

I thought that if I could just escape to a new city, start a new life, that I would be okay and I could just leave the past behind. Thankfully, I was accepted, so I packed up and I moved 70 miles into a new city with my dog, Toddy, into an adorable apartment. I found the courage to cut off all contact with my abuser and Toddy and I started our new life. I remember wondering, when would the feelings of freedom start to sink in?

As a freshly single woman in a new city, a new school, when would I start to feel like myself again? As the weeks and months went on, I continued to wonder. I started experiencing high levels of physical and emotional stress. My brain felt like a static ball of loose ends, everything firing at once.

My body rebelled as I wasn’t eating or sleeping and I replayed the abuse over and over and over again. Everything felt wrong and I spent the next year in this state progressively getting worse, constantly in fight or flight, and I didn’t know what to do. This level of suffering became intolerable. So much for my fresh start.

The Turning Point

So then one day, I’m in one of my psychology courses and we’re going over the DSM-5, the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual for Mental Disorders.