You Were Born to Love, You Evolved to Fit in: Mark Groves at TEDxSFU (Transcript)

Mark Groves

Mark Groves – Human Connection Specialist

So, 12 years ago, almost to the day actually, I was moving into a new house that I just bought with a girlfriend that I’d been dating for five years. And on the day that we were moving in together, I planned on getting engaged. I planned on it, right? So that was the plan.

So, I got to the house early to sort of set the stage, and I got there and laid out some roses from the front door that led in, and – I know what you’re thinking, like, very cliche. But I didn’t have Pinterest back then, so this was like my best work, okay? Stay with me though.

So she gets to the house, she walks in, she follows the roses. I think, like, for women, if you lay out roses, there’s just something in their DNA where they just follow. So she follows them to the kitchen, and on the island is a takeout container from our favorite restaurant. She opens the container, and, inside, it says, “Will you marry me? Yes/No,” and there’s a pen hanging, and she checks “yes.” Right? So, we did it. Okay. It gets worse before it gets better. In that moment, for the first time in my life that I can remember, I’m sort of, like, outside of me, like the Matrix, in a way – don’t worry, it’s not a woo-woo talk.

So, I’m thinking about how I’m feeling, I’m sort of like watching us celebrate, and I’m really observing my feelings, and I’m thinking, “I think I should be more excited than this.” And before I’d gotten engaged, I was quite nervous about it, I felt anxious. I would talk to people that I trusted, and I asked their advice, and they’d say things like, “I think you’re just afraid of commitment.” And I thought, “Well maybe I am, but maybe it’s something more than that.”

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And so I would spend all my spare moments on the internet, searching for things like “How do you know if she’s the one?” Yeah. No small topic. It would bring me to this website called The Runaway Bride – which no longer exists, unfortunately – and I posted my story on the forum. People on there were going through what I was going through, or had been, and what was beautiful was they didn’t care what I chose, they just cared that I made a choice that was right for me. And so this one woman, she asked me three questions that would forever change my life. And the first question was: “If she left you tomorrow, would you be okay?” And I thought, yeah, I would be okay.

And the second question she asked me was: “Can you imagine what it would be like waiting for her at your altar – whatever your altar is?” And I thought, no, that like made my stomach hurt, made me anxious. And the third question she asked me was: “Can someone else love her better?” Phew! Yeah, and she was worthy of that. She was and is an amazing woman. And that question was actually the first time I ever even considered the situation outside of my selfish bubble. It was: How will this affect me? What will people think if the relationship ends? I don’t want to hurt anyone.

It was like, wow, this fear of stepping into my truth or honoring whatever my feelings were, I wasn’t allowing her the opportunity to have the relationship she was worthy of. So I invite you, if you’re in a relationship, or even to think of your past partner, to ask yourself: “Can someone else love them better?” And if the answer is “yes,” then, of course, why are you leaving that gap? Because if you don’t fill it, someone else will. And, of course, the follow-up question to that is: “Do you want to?” And for me, I didn’t want to. And I didn’t know why, I just knew that I didn’t want to, and my truth was that I needed to end the relationship. So I did.

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