Jules Evans, author of Philosophy for Life and Other Dangerous Situations, discusses How Philosophy Can Save Your Life at TEDxBreda Conference (Transcript)
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Jules Evans – Author of Philosophy for Life and Other Dangerous Situations
So I’m going to tell you how ancient Greek philosophy inspired modern cognitive behavioral therapy or CBT, and how through CBT, millions of people have got access to the therapeutic wisdom of the ancient Greeks. We are realizing that philosophy can help us as Socrates put it: “To take care of our souls.”
So I’m going to begin by telling you my story of how philosophy helped me through the most difficult phase of my life. So when I was a teenager in the mid 1990s, my friends and I were — I guess you could describe us as amateur neuroscientists. We liked to experiment on our own brains with various different chemicals every weekend. So we began our experiments with marijuana and we had some interesting results, and then we moved on to experimenting with LSD, also quite interesting, and eventually we were experimenting with MDMA, amphetamines, ketamine, magic mushrooms, all thrown into our neural chemistry like ingredients into a druid’s cauldron. I mean, we had some great times and hilarious visionary and even spiritual experiences.
But then I noticed some of my raver friends were beginning to wipe out. So my best friend had a psychotic breakdown when he was tripping. He was just 16 and he was locked up and diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. Other friends developed bipolar disorder, depression, anxiety, paranoia.
And then in my first term at university I started to get panic attacks. I didn’t know what a panic attack was, I just knew I’d be in a quite unthreatening situation and I’d suddenly feel this full-bodied existential terror. And that undermined my confidence because I didn’t know who I’d be from one day to the next, and it also made me more socially anxious because I was never sure when panic was going to jump out and humiliate me. And my real terror was that I had done some permanent damage to the chemical balance in my brain, in which case maybe there was nothing I could do about it. Maybe I’d ruin my life before the age of 21.
So all the way through university I’d became more and more miserable and then I graduated and I hit rock bottom. I became a financial journalist. I got a job reporting on the German mortgage bond market. This is what happens if you mess around with drugs. My kind parents sent me to see quite an expensive therapist trying to help me, and he diagnosed me as suffering from social anxiety, depression and post-traumatic stress disorder. I think he was being paid per diagnosis. And he wasn’t able to help me, so I went away and I researched those conditions for myself and found they could apparently be treated by something called Cognitive Behavioral Therapy or CBT.
I also discovered there was a CBT support group for people who suffered from social anxiety that met near me every Thursday evening in London. So one Thursday I went along. I found ten people sitting in a circle and there wasn’t actually a therapist present, but someone in that group had illegally downloaded a CBT course for social anxiety from the Internet. So we listened to that course and practiced the exercises and did the homework and encouraged each other on, and for me, at least, it worked. I stopped having panic attacks after a few weeks and I began to understand how to transform my emotions.
So I became fascinated by CBT and I wondered where it had come from. I discovered it had been invented by an American psychologist named Albert Ellis, who lived in New York. So one day in 2007, I got on a plane to New York and I went to interview him. By that stage he was 92, old, frail and sick, and it turned out to be, sadly, the last interview he ever gave. He died a few months later.