Full transcript of Aaron Stark’s TEDx Talk: I Was Almost A School Shooter @ TEDxBoulder conference.
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I was almost a school shooter.
In 1996, Denver, Colorado, I was a student in North High. In a moment of pain and anger, I almost committed a terrible atrocity.
Growing up I’d learned early on there was a strange comfort and calmness in darkness. I was always the new kid. My family was violent and aggressive, drug-addicted parents. We were moving from place to place, went to 30 or 40 different schools, always seemed to be going to a new school every other week.
You woke up at 4 o’clock in the morning by cops, to run across the country to end up at a school for a couple of weeks and then have to do it all again a couple of days later.
I was the perpetual new kid, and since I also had such an unstable household, I wasn’t helped by the fact that I smelled really bad, because I never had a shower, or didn’t really have any clean clothes. All my clothes were dirty and torn.
I liked comic books at a time when kids didn’t really like people who liked comic books that much. So every time I went to a new school I was in a new set of bullies.
They’d walk up to me and shoot me with a harpoon, like I was a whale, or dump food on my head, because they said I was too fat.
But the bullying wasn’t just at school. It happened at home a lot too. I was told that I was worthless by just about everybody in my life. When you’re told you’re worthless enough you will believe it, then you’re going to do everything to make everybody else agree with it too.