Transcript: Mathias Lefebvre aka Piano Man on What do we truly need in our lives? at TEDx Queenstown
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Mathias Lefebvre aka Piano Man
Oh wow, look at this thing here, grand piano laying around, just by yourself? Oh, you need a friend baby? Want a ride? Let me see what you got. Oh, check this out.
Oh, hello! Hey everybody, wow! There are so many of you guys. That’s lucky I put my fancy shirt on today. Hi, my name is Mathias. I am best-known in Queenstown as the Piano Man.
So here is basically what I do. I put an upright piano on a cart with wheels and I pull it everywhere around town where I go and I play, I bask with it. So usually I’m facing the lake, telling the lake my story with music. But today’s a great day and I’m facing you and I will tell you my story with words.
This is a story about food, shelter and love. These, I came to understand, are the 3 things that I truly need in my life. So I came to this understanding through a little bit of a journey, but it’s a long story. To make it short, I finished my studies back home in Belgium where I’m from, and something didn’t feel right. I didn’t feel like going from studying to working, I felt too obligated, something just didn’t feel right. So I left. I went traveling. I went to Africa, South America, Asia, until I got to New Zealand and — I was broke.
I remember withdrawing the last $140 of my account, the cash point wouldn’t give me $160, That was it. So that’s when the real travel started really. This thing that I was trying to escape caught me back. I had to work and do something about it. So I learned to live with a very little amount of money. I had to.
And then I got a job as a kitchen hand. I started to work, and as expected, I just hated it. It was just awful. I just felt like someone’s little slave, But you know I had no money, I had to. So I did it. I manage to do it for 3 weeks. Until that day, I was cycling to work peacefully, and I had one of these accidents, the front wheel of my bike came off, believe it or not, I flipped over, the bike came back into my face, and I walked into my working place bleeding and very angry. Well that was one of these accidents that didn’t feel like a coincidence. I knew somehow, that subconsciously I was harming myself for just hating my life. So I took it as a sign.
And on the next day I resigned, I quit, and I was just the most happy man on Earth, I gave a high five to my boss on the way out. True story. He was very surprised.
Then something very special happened. That only time would let me identify it and put it into words, I call it the shift. It’s like everything was put upside down, and I mean everything. I was coming from a place where I was super scared of insecurity. Well, that fear of insecurity was just building up and building up and on that day it collapsed on itself, could just not be sustainable anymore. So it collapsed and I was free of the fear.
Then, being empty of the fear of insecurity, and notice, it is not the insecurity that disappeared, but the fear of it, which is another thing. Being free of that insecurity, of that fear of insecurity, this gave me a lot of empty space and suddenly I had all the freedom in the world to explore my passions. So that was one of the best times of my life, I was fear free, I had no job, and on top of this, I had $1200 that the job gave me after I quit which after living from very little money for quite a while, about 2, 3 months, having $1200 felt like a lot of money. I felt like I was rich.
So I was on top of the world, I was fear free and rich and I would finally explore all my passions. This was great. So for me the passions were: grow some food, walk the mountains and play the piano. And so I did. I grew a big veggie garden, I learned how to grow food. This was very interesting and very exciting. And then I was in Wanaka back in that day, it was all mountains around, I’d walk in the mountains every second day. And then I got myself a piano.
Now, the piano thing, I have never learned it. I have never had a piano lesson or a music lesson in my life. I had a piano, not one of these. I had a piano at my parents’ place where I grew up. And that was it. I would just tickle here and there, I would be very attracted to it, but I never got to play much more. Until I left home at 18, went studying and then went traveling, so I would play very, very, very casually, only when I would see a piano. And, like tonight, every time I would see one, I would be drawn by it. I had to give it a ride.
But then I got this piano in Wanaka. And back in the day it’s my girlfriend that actually paid for it, $75 from the recycling center, because I couldn’t afford it. I was that broke. And I started to play every day 3, 4 hours. It was like this deep surge and craving that I had for so many years that could finally be expressed, that was the biggest of my passions and so was great. I had so much fun, I composed so many songs, and I could just not stop playing.