Following is the full transcript of psychologist and hypnotherapist Sharon Livingston’s talk titled “8 Signs of a Toxic Friendship” at TEDxWilmingtonWomen conference.
Sharon Livingston – TEDx Talk TRANSCRIPT
It’s really funny to be introduced as a fun, intensive — but fun with this topic is kind of fun.
So, I want to start out by telling you a story.
So, Joe is walking down the street one morning, and all of a sudden — crash! Glass is raining down on him — ouch! Blood — oh my God! He compresses it, and he rushes back home.
And by the time he gets home, the blood is dry and the pain in his head is subsiding, still little bit there but enough that he forgets it — I mean, he’s tough, you know, he forgets it about for 25 years. 25 years!
And then he starts having these horrendous headaches and vertigo, and he’s feeling horrible, and he can’t work. He has to go to the doctor.
So he goes to the doctor, and the doctor examines him, and he brings him back into his office. And he says, “So Joe, when did it happen?”
“When did what happen?”
“When did you get shot?”
He says, “Shot?”
He says, “Joe, you have a bullet in your head.”
And believe it or not, there are many stories of people walking around with bullets in their head that they are not even aware of.
And so he thinks about it, and he remembers that day with the glass raining down on him. He’s like amazed. And the doctor does surgery to remove the bullet.
And, you know, with any kind of healing process, there’s inflammation and pain, but he gets over it. He has a little scar left, but, wow, he’s back to functioning, he’s back in the world.
And so why am I telling you about Joe? Because living in a toxic friendship, is like taking a bullet to your head.
Now, if Joe had paid attention to the signs along the way, he could have removed that bullet and had a much fuller life. And it’s the same thing with toxic friendships: If you know the signs along the way, you can intervene earlier and not have to suffer from the results of being in a bad relationship.
And how do I know this? Well, because I goofed, I was in a crazy relationship. And relationships are so important to us. Friendships are so important. We’ll do anything to keep them. Particularly, if you’re codependent, like I just discovered I was.
And so let me tell you how this all started.
Very, very busy, I live in New Hampshire, and unless you have babies or little kids, it’s hard to make friends. And I meet this woman, and I’ve been starving for a friendship. And we had this connection. It was amazing, like our eyes lit up. We were in a friend-mance, it was amazing.
And we decided that we were going to hang out together, and we had so much fun. We liked to play in the same kind of ways, you know, we liked to animate things and make them talk, and we told silly jokes — we really had fun together. For a while.
And then things started to change.
Now, what happens in the beginning is that there’s chemistry. There’s good chemistry, and there’s not so good chemistry, right?
Now, if you had bad chemistry, it can blow up in your face. But you don’t know at the beginning whether it is good chemistry or bad chemistry. And you have to have an open heart to allow yourself to find out and figure it out.
Let me tell you one other thing about friendships. There is research that shows that we are more likely to live longer and healthier lives if we have good friends.
And if we have a health challenge, there’s research that shows — contrary to what you would think, more than with the spells — having a good friend helps us heal and faster.
And so when you find a friend, you want to hold on to them. So here is what happened.
All of a sudden, we had established that we were BFFs, and all of a sudden, she started telling me about her other best friend that she was going swimming with. Her other best friend? Huh, okay. Kind of hurt me a little bit, a little shot.
And then she said, “You know, you really shouldn’t…” And she started criticizing me unsolicited. And then she’d say, “You really have to change that.” Again, unsolicited.
And then we would have crazy amounts of talk time where I was beginning to step back because she told me I had to change. So I put on my therapy cap and I thought, “Okay, I’ll take care of her, and I would listen.”