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Raise your hand if you have ever been asked the question, “What do you want to be when you grow up?”
Now, if you had to guess, how old would you say you were when you were first asked this question? You can just hold up fingers.
Three, five, three, five, five; okay.
Now, raise your hand if the question “What do you want to be when you grow up?” has ever caused you any anxiety. Any anxiety at all.
I’m someone who’s never been able to answer the question, “What do you want to be when you grow up?”
See, the problem wasn’t that I didn’t have any interests, it’s that I had too many.
In high school I liked English, and Math, and Arts, and I built websites, and I played guitar in a punk band called Frustrated Telephone Operator. Maybe you’ve heard of us.
This continued after high school, and at a certain point, I began to notice this pattern in myself, where I would become interested in an area and I would dive in, and become all consumed, and I’d get to be pretty good at whatever it was, and then I would hit this point where I’d start to get bored.
And usually, I would try and persist anyway because I’d already devoted so much time and energy, and sometimes money into this field. But eventually, this sense of boredom, this feeling of, “Yeah, I’ve got this! This isn’t challenging anymore,” it would get to be too much, and I would have to let it go.
But then, I would become interested in something else, something totally unrelated, and I would dive into that and become all consumed, and I would feel like, “Yes, I found my thing!” And then I would hit this point again where I’d start to get bored and eventually I would let it go.
But then I would discover something new and totally different, and I would dive into that — This pattern caused me a lot of anxiety for two reasons: the first was that I wasn’t sure how I was going to turn any of this into a career. I thought that I would eventually have to pick one thing, deny all my other passions and just resign myself to being bored.
The other reason it caused me so much anxiety was a little bit more personal. I worried that there was something wrong with this and something wrong with me for being unable to stick with anything. I worried that I was afraid of commitment, or that I was scattered, or that I was self sabotaging, afraid of my own success.
If you can relate to my story and to these feelings, I’d like you to ask yourself a question that I wish I had asked myself back then. Ask yourself where you learned to assign the meaning of wrong or abnormal to doing many things. I’ll tell you where you learned it. You learned it from the culture.
When you were first asked the question, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” you were about five years old, and the truth is that no one really cares what you say when you are that age. It’s considered an innocuous question posed to little kids to elicit cute replies. Like, “I want to be an astronaut,” or “I want to be a ballerina,” or “I want to be a pirate,” – insert Halloween costume here.
But this question is asked of us again and again as we get older in various forms. For instance, high school students might get asked what major they are going to pick in college. And at some point, what do you want to be when you grow up goes from being the cute exercise it once was to the thing that keeps us up at night. Why?
See, while this question inspires kids to dream about what they could be, it does not inspire them to dream about all that they could be. In fact, it does just the opposite. Because when someone asks you what you want to be, you can’t reply with 20 different things. The well meaning adult will likely chuckle and be like, “Oh, how cute, but you can’t be a violin maker and a psychologist. You have to choose.”
This is Doctor Bob Childs. And he’s a luthier and a psychotherapist.
And this is Amy Ng, a magazine editor, turned illustrator, entrepreneur, teacher, and creative director.
But most kids don’t hear about people like this. All they hear is that they are going to have to choose. But it’s more than that.
The notion of the narrowly focused life is highly romanticized in our culture. It’s this idea of destiny or the one true calling. The idea that we each have one great thing we are meant to do during our time on this Earth. And you need to figure out what that thing is and devote your life to it.
But what if you are someone who isn’t wired this way? What if there are a lot of different subjects that you’re curious about? And many different things you want to do? Well, there is no room for someone like you in this framework. And so you might feel alone. You might feel like you don’t have a purpose. You might feel like there is something wrong with you.