What Dying Patients Taught This Doctor About The Fear Of Death: Fahad Saeed (Transcript)

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Dr. Fahad Saeed – Nephrologist & Palliative Care Specialist

During recent years, medical science has made considerable advances.

The latest study published in one of the most prestigious medical journals has totally changed the way we think about living. This study showed that life may not be survivable.

And the chart here shows 100% of us will die. It’s not me saying it; it’s science.

While talking about your death, I am perhaps exposing you to one of your worst fears and one of mine. I’m a researcher; I’m a kidney doctor. I’m also a palliative care and hospice doctor.

Being someone who deals with death and dying on a day-to-day basis does not make me any better or worse than the rest of you when it comes to facing my own mortality. We’re all in this together.

Let me share with you my own journey with the fear of death.

I am an immigrant to this country, which is now my country. I came here after completing my medical school. I still remember that one cold night in New York City when I had no place to live, I had budgeted ten dollars a day to survive for next five months.

I was roaming the streets, wearing a light jacket. Clearly I had underestimated the severity of cold weather in New York. During that night, there was a time when I thought I was going to die on the streets of a foreign country.

Just to give you an update in case you didn’t notice: I am alive. But that night, exposure to my own mortality made me curious about how people cope with their death; how is it possible that one day we’re here in this world and the next we may not be?

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So today I am going to tell you how to conquer your fear of death. On this important issue in my more than a decade long medical training experience, this is what I’ve learned. Nothing. Nobody taught me how to cope with the fear of death.

I have dreams and aspirations that can be shattered at any moment by my death. I’ve three young children and I wish to raise them to be good human beings. I aspire to do better and make a tiny impact in the field of medicine and help my fellow human beings.

But the reality is I’m scared of dying. And I am even more afraid of losing my loved ones. At one of the family gatherings, my mom who was approaching her seventies made a comment; she said “I don’t know how long I’m going to be with you all.” As soon as she uttered those words, my siblings and I immediately said, “No mom, you’ll be okay.”

I was a trained medical professional, and I said that. Can you believe that? I couldn’t get the truth out, because I was so afraid of losing her.

I felt totally inadequate. I couldn’t discuss my own mom’s end of life wishes — something that I do on a regular basis for my patients. So I really wanted to learn how people cope with the fear of death.

And I was very fortunate to learn it from the best teachers: my dying patients. These are my teachers; these are my heroes.

Myfirst hero’s name, we’ll call him Jerome. He and I met in my kidney clinic. He was in his 70s. He was wearing blue jeans and a black polo shirt. It was a very busy day. But there was something different about this office visit.

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